Well fellow bloggers - I did it. Here I am in Tenerife.

It is a rather warm 30 degrees this afternoon and I have come indoors to protect myself from the sun. I am not burning on this trip!

I have been practicing my Spanish wherever possible and Isadora will be proud of meD

Hope you are well and dandy and the weather there is still holding out for you!

Rest assured I will bring lots of sun back with me to share with you all.

hasta luego

Wcg xxx

What a view eh........

I could sit there and be inspired to writeD

Going to arrange a viewing on this next week - possible pension fund.

Even Mermaids get old

Hello

Not been on since 31st March - just looked at my last entry to check. Seems like a lot longer.

Confession time....

I have been suffering from depression going steadily downhill over the last 4 or 5 weeks. Usual symptoms - wide awake at 4:00am, washing on line by 5:00am, hovering, brekkie and then floor washing and it is still only 6:30am. These are all distraction activities - stops you from thinking about stuff.

Stuff - I was pretty wound up about the sailors held in Iran as my daughter did that trip last year and could in theory be called back there at anytime. Thank goodness they are all home safe and sound now. I reckon it was what tipped me over the edge though - the worry.

Work is more frantic than ever, I like the company but I so need some help as I have an area geographically that is at best 2 x times the size as my colleagues' areas and in some cases 4 x times larger!! I enjoy the work but I am fire-fighting and this leads to a lack of job satisfaction.

The good news is that I am off on holiday at the end of this week for 14 days - Tenerife!! I am going to so indulge. Lots of walking, sun and massages to rid me of this stressD

With depression everything takes 10 x longer. Decisions take ages, then I make lists, this all puts off doing what actually needs doing. Silly things like paying the electricity bill become akin to climbing Everest. Still I have reached the end of the "before the holiday" lists now. Letters posted, bills paid, jobs done.

Single people are definitely more prone to depression I believe because we have nobody to offload to who will counteract it with a cheery "never mind", "let's go out", "it will all be OK".

I would love to have one of those life coaches who could tell me where I am going wrong. I am sure I have loads of good points. Don't I??

Today for instance I had to attend an AGM this afternoon. I sat outside on the Bay having a diet coke 30 minutes before the start. The place was thronged, trillions of couples, young colleagues laughing at shared jokes, families enjoying a day out and I sat there like I was in a glass bubble. I wanted to run around shouting "what about me", I nearly gave in and cried - pathetic self-pity. I had a cigarette, finished the coke and went to my meeting - all a front - successfully carried off.

So here I sit tonight, finally got myself to log on and write something - this.